As the year closes, we can look back over our lives and think about how many times we “made it”. We made it because of our perseverance in the struggles of life. Some of this year was “smooth sailing” while other moments seemed to capsize our world with tsunami force.
Through it all, I’ve learned to trust in Jesus, I’ve learned to trust in God. There continues to be moments of not understanding what God has for us or why bad things happen to good people or how the good die young while the bad lives on into their havoc.
I have questioned God several times this year which made my struggle intense at times. I worried about persons, places and things that I had no control over. I even gave up on God and found that God never gave up on me.
So this is no resolution for the new year, but a reality check that I must struggle to find strength and to activate my faith. Faith the size of a mustard seed that seems stronger than my struggle. Faith that lifts me up when I have fallen down. Faith that wiped my tears when I was most vulnerable. Faith to believe in people when the situation did not make sense.
I am broken. I will struggle. God will nurture my imperfections and vulnerable moments to capture the beauty of life so I can relax in the safety of God.
Life support is over…restoration begins…